Confessions

First of all I want to say,
baby you are my everything.
You're nothing but good to me,
you treat me just like a king.

You hug me when I'm sad,
and tell me every things okay.
You're there to cheer me up,
when things go the wrong way.

Even when we're far away,
you call just to say you miss me.
And how you'd give the whole world,
if you could just be with me.

But I fear that will change now,
and its really all my fault.
Because I made the one mistake,
that could put our love on halt.

Last week when we had that fight,
you said you wished I would die.
That day I most likely did,
Because the only thing I did was cry.

When i tried to call you,
you wouldn't answer your phone.
And the one time you did,
you just said to leave you alone.

I gave you what you wanted,
and we didn't talk for days.
I thought it wasn't serious,
that it was just another phase.

But you were still the same way,
so I turned to your friend for help.
Because she was the only person,
I could tell how I really felt.

We sat together and talked,
even though she was my ex.
And believe it or not,
that same night we had sex.

I know what you're thinking,
but I was just so confused.
With you just ignoring me,
I couldn't help but feel abused.

I didn't mean for that at all,
it was the last thing on my mind.
Everything happened too fast,
by my emptiness I was blind.

I don't know what to do now,
but this is something I cant hide.
I cant keep being with you,
keeping from you this dark lie.

Deep in my heart I just hope,
that you'd still want to be with me.
And I swear to God I'm sorry,
I just wish you would forgive me..

*Sigh*..