So Controlling

I wake up to a dark morning,
Knowing that this depression is so controlling.

Wondering what I did so wrong in life to deserve the pain I suffer,
Nobody can see what I go through, not even the women that rise me, which is my mother.

I look to the sky and ask God please take me now,
I just want all this pain to be over some way, some how.

I pray for everyone that go's through the pain I go through at night,
Knowing what we have to go through, isn't at all right.

So I take a blade and start the marks, wherever there's a open space,
Wishing I didn't belong in this place.

I just took you to what I go in the morning,
Now you know how depression can be "So Controlling".

I just wrote this poem because I feel like I cant take it anymore.The pain so much, its only so much I can take. If I wind up giving up I just want to say to the one's that thinking about giving up that don't do it please be strong cause we need people that have to overcome depression and If anyone lost someone to depression and still cant get over there lost I just wanna say that I'm so sorry and my heart go's to the person or people that care.

God Bless You all.