I never said id be okay

As I lye in my bed,
I cant help but think about the things you said,
All you do is cause me pain,
To you my life is just a game.

I never said Id be ok,
I never said Id live to see another day,
I am too depressed to go on,
You will be sorry when I am gone.

I pull up my sleeve and stare at my scars in awe,
I grab my blade and cut more and more,
Only a few more marks and then I am done,
But I cant stop Now I am having so much fun!

A stream of blood comes down my arm,
I never meant to do you harm,
I went too deep and hit a vein,
But I do not care because my life is just like a game!

My blood soaks to the floor,
Is my life over? I pray theres no more,
My mind goes black then white,
Should i just give up this fight?

Theres nothing left to do but lay here and die,
For I am too weak to stand, too weak to cry,
Now I am dead I know ill be fine,
You'll get over me it wont take no time.

Now dig a hole in the ground,
Just throw me in so ill never be found,
Cover me with plenty of dirt,
Now im dead Ill no longer hurt!