Spirit

I thought you'd be here forever
Always telling me right from wrong
But now you've spread your wings
And left me to move on

At first i didn't believe it
I wouldn't accept that it was true
No matter how hard i tried to ignore
I knew I coluldn't go on without you

The angels had come down
And flew you far away
They opened up their arms
To lead you the way

I know you're up there now
Looking down on me
Although you're not here
Your spirit is set free

But what have I done to deserve this?
Have I been bad? Have I said something wrong?
Why did God take you away from me?
With you is where I belong

It's been such a long time now
Since I last held your hand
And I was told to move on
And let you fly to your silent land

It's hard for me to speak
As i stand over your grave
'Cause it hurts me so bad
Knowing I won't hear your voice again

So whenever I start to loose you
I look deep inside my heart
And see your shining face
Wishing we weren't apart

I keep reading the notes you wrote me
And staring at the pictures on my shelf
Remembering like it was yesterday
And then I don't know what to do with myself

I would've given you anything
To hell and back I'd go for you
And there's no doubt that if I could take your place in heaven, I would
'Cause you come first, I'd die for you

If I had one wish
It would be to see you again once more
I can't keep on living this way
It's killing me, my mind's turned sore

And I still wonder to myself
Why would God want to hurt me so bad?
Does he know how much it hurts to be missing you?
He can't, no-one can

Slowly the years have past
And I still cry in the night
I wake up wishing you would walk in
And turn on my bedroom light

But I know I'll see you again one day
When it's my time to go
My sad faces and frowns will disappear
And a smile will soon show

Then we can be together
This time no-one can take you from me
We'll jump over clouds and explore the skies
And be as close as we used to be

So that'll be my dream
To meet with you in heaven
And you'll be waiting, we can leave our troubles behind
It'll be me and you then Nan, forever.

Hey Guys!
This poem is dedicated to my Nan who died August 8, 1997. I really miss her and not a day goes by when I don't think of her.
It would be most appreciated if you could leave some comments on my poem, giving me advice on how to improve.
Thank you and take care
Love Lucy xxx