Do you?

Do you ever get that feeling....
like you just want to break down and cry.
finally reveal to the world how truly hurt you are?
show the people that hurt you
how much they made you suffer? yet,
you're scared to,
because you think if they know
they might want to keep you that way,
might even make it worse,
and at this point you aren't strong enough
to take anymore pain?
do you ever sit in your room
and cry yourself to sleep at night
in fear of being alone the rest of your life?
even when you have a lot of people
who say they love you?
do you need someone to be there,
someone you can give your entire heart to,
commit your life to them,
and be sure they won't break it
not hurt you as much as the past people
not that it can be ripped apart anymore
it's already been shattered
n stomped on
to the point where you almost killed yourself
over a boy,
a stupid boy
who didn't know what he's now missing
what he ruined
what he did to this wonderful girl
who didn't do anything to deserve the pain
that he caused her
didn't deserve to be screwed over
torn apart
broken hearted
the day he left
he took something with him
that she may never get back
her love in her heart
the love she should have gave
to someone who actually cared?
are you slowly going downhill in life?
turning into a failure?
a disappointment to the people that love you?
do you love your friends?
yet know you want to take your own life?
are you vulnerable?
do you start shaking when you're scared of being hurt,
scared of getting another broken heart,
not that it could possibly be crushed anymore.
are you afraid of being abused like when you were a child?
have the little innocence you have left
taken yet again?
do your thoughts get to you every night?
making you almost commit suicide?
do you know what i mean?
.........are you like me?