What I can't see

I question your love
not knowing what to think of
so here I am at the end of me
trying to hold on to what I can't see
just tell me do you love me or do you not
because right now now I feel like the one you forgot
I never wanted you to lie
but can't you see the pain in my eyes
I question when you say we'll be forever
even though I should know better
if only you could know what's going through my head
how could you not understand after all that was said
why would you put me through this
when you say I'm the one you miss
I don't want you to think that situations you have hide
but what you said is killing me inside
I don't want to hide this from you
but right now I'm not sure what to do
tears fall from my eyes, but I put a smile in my voice
I just want to forget you ever made this choice
I go on pretending that I'm OK
but I don't know how much longer I can live this way
I begin to believe I never knew what love was
that you're just telling me you love me just because
I would sit and try to understand
but when I thought about it my tears once again began
I gave you my heart, I gave you my trust
but now I begin to wonder if it was just lust
with you I don't want to fight
but I know I can make it another night
the thought begin to consume my mind
I keep trying to convince myself that I'll be fine
don't start now, this fight you can win
but why would you do this after I let you in
I let you in my heart, where no one has ever managed to be
no one except you has gone past what they see
some days I don't think that love is there
I begin to believe that you don't actually care
but after everything I still can't let go
even after everything you let me know
your love you never seem to present
I don't even know anymore if we're meant
now I no longer run to the phone
to see if it's you, because I feel all alone
and I don't bother to smile anymore
but only one thing could hurt me more
I don't want you to let me fall
even though some days I fell your not there at all
but I still love you, even after all that happened
I want you to be the one to help my heart mend
I just want to know that your love is still mine
but I just can't see your love this time
I want to believe it's there, but nothing
I want to believe, because you are my everything
some days you prove to me it's real
but right now love isn't something I feel
I just want you to be there like how I'm there for you
I want you to be the one to help pull me through
so I sit here trying to hold back the tears
because losing you is one of biggest fears
I'll never understand why
you knew something like this would make me cry
I just want to know that your love is pure
just tell me that you love me for sure
please just tell me you love me
because right now I'm holding on to something I can't see....