Realization of lies

You can blame us all you want
yell and scream its not fair
tell me how they hurt you
how they didn't care

tell me how you love me
how they took me away
tell me how they poisoned my mind
and how your the one to pay

Well tell me mother
if that's all so true
why did they love me
and speak so highly of you

tell me how you sold them
my brothers
for drugs you had them
they were just like the other

yeah the sister i never knew
and i don't think i ever will
but just to meet them
for that chance i would kill

so tell me to hate them
that what they say is lies
tell me all about your past
all the times you got high

tell all your reasons
for me to pitty you
tell me about the pain
i wish it were true

because let me tell you something mother
something you have never known
let me tell you of the lies
and the tears that have shown

and if only you were here
to look me in the eye
i would tell you of all the times
when all i wanted was to die

and yes its your fault
you put me in that pain
you never cared about but me
unless it was to your gain

it was the same for Cassandra
you only wanted Joe back
you told us you love us
but thats what you lack

If you could see me now
what would you think?
i now dress in all black
and my tears shed when i blink

they fall down me face
travel like a dart
down they go
toward my heart

when it touch
the pain it hurts so
but you'll never see this
because i have let go

this is what you need to do
mother
just let me go

as i type this
i realize the key
it not you who needs to let go
its ..........me.