This life

I'm so tiered of this life I'm living in,
No matter what I do I cant seem to win.
The screaming in my head just wont go away,
I sit here in misery every single day.
The only thing that seems to bring me to ease,
Is to cut my wrist and drop to my knees.
I sit there on the floor shedding my tears,
Wishing that everything would go away especially my fears.
I have lived such a hard and horrible life,
So all I can think to do is grab the knife.
As I watch the blood drip on the floor,
I hear a noise coming from the door.
I look up and there she was with a bright glow,
She looked at me and said its not your time to go.
She walked over and kissed me on my head,
And I said why grandma do you have to be dead.
She said that everything was going to be fine,
She will always be in everyones heart especially mine.