My Final Apology©

My Final Apology

What you can’t see,
Can still be there.
It’s just beneath the surface, inside of me.

The tears I cry, the pain I feel,
All too raw and much to real.
I hide behind this plastic smile,
Too keep you safe, if just for a while.

My big mistake, was taking you on.
Who thought, who knew, it could turn so horribly wrong.
It started so innocent, and all so sweet,
This was the first time we were to meet.

I still can’t find, the words to say,
I am hating you more every single day.
The guilt I feel, cannot be described,
Because it’s all hidden so deep inside.

I hate myself for doing this to you,
I thought if I gave you time, you could see.
That you and I weren’t meant to be.
I thought that it would be the easiest,
To let you go, soft and discreet.
But I guess that lead you on,
Maybe this, is where it all went wrong.

So as I sit here and write this rhyme,
Finding the words, how to describe
Of how I feel inside.

All I can find, is how sorry,
I am, for the pain I’ve caused, and all the worry.
It was a waste of time, I know
But before you go,
I just wanted you to know,
How sorry, a girl can be,
For what happened between you and me,

--- This is my final apology. ---

[[This song is dedicated to a past relationship that i went through, that simply turned cold, but with more complications. It's the other side of bad break ups which you don't see as much. So i guess it's another perspective on broken relationships and what it feels like.]]