In death©

In death

The numbness has taken over,
I think I’ve lost control,
Of my love, life and forever eternal soul.

I don’t know what to do,
No clue where to go,
In this so called life,
My living hellhole.

Where did it go wrong?
But where did it go right?
I'm losing this battle, my never ending fight.

I just want to scream,
At the top of my lungs.
Scream for all the pain,
Troubles, worries and burning hate
But nothing seems to relate,
To the pain I feel ,
All too damn fcuking real.

I try so hard to hold on to my dreams and hopes,
Endlessly trying and failing,
And I can’t seem to cope.

So I suck it all in and pray,
Just pray…
That my day will come,
And I will be in peace,
In rest…
In silence,
In death.

[[This is just a dark poem. Again, it's another description of how i feel sometimes. I wrote this during a very...'rough' time in my life a few months ago. I felt completely helpless and depressed for a long time, and considered taking my life more times then you should, but i had great support during it, and i somehow pushed through it all, and things sort of got better. It just shows that things do get better and taking your life is not a way out...so don't get the wrong idea about this poem. ]]