Suicidal Thought part 2

Standing here with that knife i said
do you think its all going to me head?
trying to remember when i was happy
but the thoughts i see are misery

i lead this life and its not true
if people live you life, they dont need you
thats what they do to me
they want control over who i am and what i want to be

even though this is my life
no one thinks that...
they think they're playing it all right
these games are making me mad
but here i am, ready for it
...do you think later i'll regret it?

i press my eyes shut
here goes that first cut
a tear falls down my face
now guess where it had to land...in that place

i opened my eyes and looked and my wrist
already covered in blood from my first slit
i close my eyes hard and tight again
another slit, now my knife is my friend
in a minute i had 8 cuts
then all of a sudden
i fell to the floor and my eyes were shut