Not Dreaming

I never thought that my nightmares,
would become my reality,
but here I am, waiting for you,
and there you go, running from me,

I am sorry for pain you might have felt,
so sorry for the stupid s*** I've done,
I hate this hand that I have been dealt,
but I'm stuck, and you're the only one,
the only one who can save me,
I know I'm not quite worth it,
but this isn't who I want to be,
this worthless piece of s***,

I never thought that my nightmares,
would become my reality,
but here I am, waiting for you,
and there you go, running from me,

I've grown cold, and I hate myself,
I don't care, I can't stand on my own,
my heart has been laid up on a shelf,
I'm so sorry for what I've shown,
I'd like to die tonight, I'd like to let go,
I don't want to survive, at least not anymore,
I'm useless, I've never felt so low,
I'm broken down to the core,

I never thought that my nightmares,
would become my reality,
but here I am, waiting for you,
and there you go, running from me,

But I'm sorry, I'm so sorry for everything,
I'm sorry, I was stupid, I know,
so sorry, sorry for the discomfort that I bring,
I'm sorry that my love had to show,
I don't understand why we can't,
can't be friends, can't be friends,
I know it's dumb, everything I rant,
but why can't we make amends,

I never thought that my nightmares,
would become my reality,
but here I am, waiting for you,
and there you go, running from me,

I never thought, my nightmares,
would become my reality,
I never thought, my nightmares,
would become all that I can see,
I never thought, my nightmares,
would become my reality,
I never thought, my nightmares,
would become all that I can see,

I never thought that my nightmares,
would become my reality,
but here I am, waiting for you,
and there you go, running from me...