Now look what you've made me do

by мσяιтυяαм   Sep 1, 2005


I told you all my secrets you gave me only lies
forget whatever happened i want you gone from my eyes
for years i have put up with your violence
and for years i have kept my silence
i wont let you know that i cried
i wont let you be satisfied
i have emotions- you didn't even know
because i never let them show
I'm gonna show you all the hidden things you don't see
its time for me to show you the real me
you don't know me
i wont let you control me
love me, hate me
make me, break me
you're driving me insane
Ive already dealt with enough pain
drag me down, watch me fall
no one to catch me, no one at all
Ive bent too far I'm going to break
all this pain i just cant take
look at me
what do you see?
this is the day that i throw my life away
you don't even care
when i needed you the most you were never there
my world has fallen apart
life's too short to restart
try to save me- help me out
show me what life is all about
going further into this state of mind
there's just to much, i need to unwind
what is the point of going on
i live in a place i don't belong
take me to a place where i don't exist
gone forever, lost, dismissed
what do i do?
i turn to the knife
maybe i can cut the pain right out of my life
looking down at my arm
i see all of the self harm
its because of you
I'm slicing through
look at the blood and its deep red shade
look at the pretty mess Ive made
all this pain cuts so deep
the only way to get away is to sleep
i hope its all a dream from which i will awaken
but to my dismay I'm always mistaken
am i dreaming?
does my life have any meaning?
i slowly take my last breath...
and prepare myself for death
come...watch me die
say goodbye...

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  • 18 years ago

    by xXxDarkDreamerxXx

    Woh! it was a really awesome poem it was worth reading it all the way! You really have talent and every poem so far that i've read from you has been great! Keep it up! ^_^ It held alot of emotions, sad, but still a great write!

  • 18 years ago

    by ari

    Wow, this one was long, but worth every word. great job!

  • 18 years ago

    by Nearly but not quite

    That's so good! "pretty mess" hey, that rings a bell, but arms are too difficult to hide... Sorry, back to the poem, I really like the emotion in there, it's truly palpable, and the imagery is, you can't really say beautiful without admitting to sadism, but perfect, so true. Thanks for your comment on my poem! 5/5
    Helen

  • 18 years ago

    by Munir Mezyed

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  • 18 years ago

    by Jin

    EXCELLENT WRITE....... People will really feel you from this poem.... You can feel your heart pouring.... I don't know if it is so, but I wonder if it was one of those where you're full of emotions so the words pour out perfectly onto your paper.... I love when that happens....(afterward later later when I feel a little better... only cause my poem turns out just the way I like it) =)

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