Going back

Going back to the same old place
a year older but it hasn't changed.
still wondering from one class to another.
still trying to be invisible.

got out of councelling even stopped s-i.
then i go back for one day and its still just the same.
still able to make me feel depressed.
even enough to want back my blade.

i hoped this year would be different
but its not.
all thats different is there is more pressure
to do well in my G.C.S.E's.

its got to the point already that i don't care any more.
not just about that but about everything.
i don't want to go back to depending on my blade.
but i don't wanna have to still feel like this.
just the invisible outcast.