Don't Miss Me Now

I didn't lie
I didn't frickin lie
Why don't you
Believe me?

I'm sick of this
It's never right
Or good enough

I'm not what
You want me to be
That's not good...
Enough for you

This time it's gonna end
For good
Not just thoughts
And wishes

No turning back
Or getting help
After it's been done

It's loaded now
Against my head
BANG...silence
It's done

I wont be missed
How could I be?
All I ever did
Is screw up

I can start to hear
Screams and crys
Who could that be?
Why would they be sad?

I never did anything right
And now that I'm gone
They should be happy

When I was alive
All they wanted to do was yell
Why couldn't I just hear
A simple nice word

Is this really what it took?
To hear something good
About me

Normally these kind words
Would be nice
But now they just
Piss me off

This is what it took
I'm gone now
And don't want to hear
Anything from you

It's done for both of us
I don't have to
Dissapoint you and
You don't have to be
Dissapointed in me