Yours...Truly...

Close my eyes, and count to ten...
I'm cutting but praying to go to heaven...

Push the blade down deeper, make the pain feel good,
Feel the cool blade in my veins, feels just like it should...

It hurts to know that you had lied,
And it'll hurt when you find out, you're why I died.

You took my heart, ripped it in two,
So thats what I'm going to do to you.

You threw me out, and tore my joy,
Like I was some sort of toy!

I don't get what's on your mind,
Maybe that's the answer that I'll find...

I'll write a last note, just for you...
So you can feel the way I do...

So here's the note, read it well,
Your questions, the answers, this note will tell,

"...it's all my fault, I should never have tried,
This is the reason that I have died..."

"I gave you everything, and some more,
But by a jerk, my heart was torn..."

"I couldn't keep you happy, so I had to let you go,
But how could I let go, when I love you so?"

"...you held me up, when I fell down,
Comforted me, when you were around..."

"Then you left me for some "friend", and now I feel depressed,
I tried so hard not to cut, now I'm a bloody mess..."

"You left me when I needed you most, and hooked up with that girl,
You had always told me, that I was your whole world..."

"It's all your fault that I'm dead,
...you're so screwed up in the head..."

"You treated me like some discarded toy,
I can't believe I fell for such a stupid boy..."

"You dumped me through a text message, what a sad excuse,
If you didn't care about me, then what the hell was the use?!"

"I don't know why I'm still writing, you probably threw it away,
But if you haven't, I just have a few last things to say..."

"You're the only one who laughs at your jokes, even if they are lame,
And I never thought you'd be the player, of this stupid game..."

"And you never were the brightest, you were more dense than me,
But you always fought to protect me, and it's now that I see..."

"Though everything about you, is the thing that I most hate,
Your love, I still have the need, to appreciate..."

"So now my tendons are torn, and my handwriting looks really bad,
Knowing that I'm leaving you, makes me really sad..."

"It was better to have love and lost, then to never have loved at all...is really true,
This is the end, my darling, I'll always be in love with you..."

"...marked with a rose, sealed with a kiss,
You're the only one that I'll ever miss..."

"I love you, through thick and thin...
Yours Truly, Catherine."

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***There are times when love hurts so
much that it resorts to suicide,
and this is for those people who
feel like this and have also done it...***

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***Dedicated to a dear friend
of mine who killed herself because
her boyfriend did this to her...just
about copied from the original
note she had written...*sigh*
6 years ago...I still pray...***
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R.I.P. Catherine Hickores.
October 16 1999

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(C) Christina Hurley.
09-16-2005