LOST

A feeling that can not be described
I get it each time I remember
It leads me to death
Let me forget
Please.....I'm sick of it
It's not a way to live
I hate my memories!!
I want to start over....
To forget!
This is not helping,
Actually nothing is!!
I lost the control of my tears...
I don't know what I want and what I don't
This is killing me day after day
I want to forget that but
Memories.....
I do not know what kind of memories they are they??
Sad?
Happy?
WHAT???
I don't want memories...
I hate the past...
I hate my inside...
That is burning with fire that will can never disappear or even calm down....
All this is preventing me from sleep...
It is ruining what's left inside me and moving down more deep
It wont be easily resolved if I start to weep...
I think I should go over this
Although it isn't easy
But I'm surely strong...
Yes am,I am strong!!
But it may take a while, during that while,
I'll be deleting all what is inside me ...
Erasing ??
Forgetting what I need to forget!!
And trust me,
I'm strong enough to do so
You'll see