The unknown

Help, something took my breath away
I do not know what's wrong??I'm having some kind of dismay

I want to cry, I do not know why
I can't help it, all what I can do is to sigh

This wont help, I'm still not fine
Is it because I'm having a broken heart by a friend of mine?

Or is it just because I miss my tears:
The worm ones that helped me feel better over that passing years?

It have been this way
Ever since the very first day

Depressedâ?¦from everything around
Being depressed is the only thing I found

Having a new friend got me feel alive again
But how long will this friendship be? It is a year? It can be ten!

Is it something out of control?
It is killing me, pulling out my soul

I want to cry hard and loud
I want to yell without gathering around me a big crowed

But crying wont change a single thing
It won't take anything away and nothing it will bring

Sadness will follow me everywhere I go
Until it let me give up and let my soul leave me and my body throw

This isn't a way to live
I do not know who to blame for this and who to forgive

My words cannot describe what I feel
It is more than horrible it is torturing me for real

I really feel bad
I do not feel like talking, it gets me badly mad

Let me end this nonsense to go hide somewhere and forever weep
Or just under my undisruptive words I will quietly sleep