The knife or life? i don't no what to choose!

I feel so much pain inside
i don't no what to do
maybe i should just give up
and its all because of you

i have no one who gets me
they only pretend they care
they say they'll never leave me
but they are really never there

they don't no whats in my life
and what happens everyday
they have no idea that whats inside
is way to hard to say

i wish that someone would save me
from the nothing I've become
i want to go somewhere else
just pick up and run

i don't no where to go from here
part of me wants to die
then the other part wants to live
but all i do is cry

why is everyone really mean
why do they do this to me
I'm just as good as them
so why can't we just be???

i want to go but i want to stay
but i just have to much pain
having it always staying here
is driving me f u k i n insane!