What To Do

by Joey P   Sep 23, 2005


I wake up everyday with the same thoughts in my head,
I thinking i'm the mess up and I wish was dead.

I fight with my girl over stupid little things,
Now I know i'm the mess up cause look what pain I bring.

I hate myself for so many reasons I wonder where I should start,
So I take my razor and make marks on the skin that protect my heart.

Whenever I feel sad I cut and keep cutting till I see there no more room,
Wishing that one day God can give me hug and heal these wounds.

I don't know what to do with this life of mine,
Feeling like my life was pop open and gush out like a bottle of wine.

People say don't worry God will help you find the way,
So I sit here crying waiting for that day.

I want to be happy expect for putting this front so people can see my pain,
I feel it getting worse and it just drives me insane.

I just want to ask him. one question, why me,
Is this what my life is about and if so is this the way it should be?

So I wake every morning thinking What to do,
Praying to God and saying I hope one day I can be with you.

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  • 18 years ago

    by Drop xdead gorgeous

    Heyy There ~

    I Juss wanted to say that I LOVE your work..I keep going back to it..!..I Can relate to you inna lot of ways..!.

    Nd I know that sometimes when Im down nd out feelin lyke i wanna die or feelin that there is nothin to live for..I Pray...Nd I know that you may not want to hear it...Or it may not seem like its true..But God Will Guide You Through!..He will always be there for you through your good tymes and bad..!..You juss gotta keep your faith Upp...Cause one day it will all pay off...all tha bad shit that you were goin through...will only make you stronger in the end!!...So plz dont give upp..!! Kayz..!?!

    If you ever need someone ta talk to juss E•mail me or leave a comment!...Ill try ta give you words of advice..Cause I know when Im down nd feel lyke Ive hit rock bottom..I juss want to talk ta someone...So juss feel free ta hit me upp..!...

    Keep Upp Tha Good Work!

    Catch Ya Laterr...
    •xOx• + CaSs + •oXo•
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  • 18 years ago

    by Torn

    Omg that was an extremely depressing poem:( it was just so heartfelt...
    please just reach out and don't give up. You once gave me wise words of wisdom that i try to work on achieving everyday. U seem like an awesome guy...plz stay strong:)
    take care and pm me if u ever want...
    xoxoxxoxo

  • 18 years ago

    by Marjan

    Hey joey, that was so sad and very well written. you're very good at expressing your thoughts.
    please take a look at my poem
    "why so sad?" if you have the time.
    take care and I hope you feel better now,
    marjan

  • 18 years ago

    by Pilar

    Hi
    don't give up! ^^
    god will help u find the way, there's always a sunny day after the rain. if the sun doesn't light up you're days yet, it doesn't mean it won't, don't worry things will get better, i'm sure.
    i know maybe i'm useless and can't help, but if u ever need it, here's a hand held to help u whenever u need.
    i loved the poem, 5/5 for sure.
    take care.

    pili

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