If only I could see you

The air only gets colder
as the tear runs down my cheek
and everything grows darker
as I only grow more weak

This is what happens
night after night
keeping in my tears
is {always} a constant fight

I just want to see your smiling face
and the twinkles in your eyes
I want your arms around my waiste
and my head up in the sky
happiness surrounding us
the love we feel is true
butterflies in my stomach
all that matters then is you

'Cause every night I go to bed
I imagine you by my side
but I roll over and see the truth
that to myself I'd lied

You arent really here
and I dont know if you ever will be
so I grab my blanket, and grasp my pillow
and close my eyes to see

To see your smiling face
the twinkles in your eyes
your arms around my waiste
my head up in the sky
happiness surrounds us
the love we feel is true
butterflies in my stomach
all that matters now is you

To have you with me for a split second
is more than I could ask
but your halfway around the world
and just hearing you is a task

So when I try to sleep at night
your what occupies my mind
I close my eyes and start to dream
and in this dream I find

The smile on your face
the twinkles in your eyes
your arms around my waiste
my head up in the sky
happiness surrounds us
the love we feel is true
butterflies in my stomach
all that matters now is you

I wake up in the morning
and all I had is lost
your no longer with me
and my heartbreak is its cost

I have to get up now though
no matter how alone I am
I have to face another day
even when I don't feel I can

Life has knocked me down
down upon my knees
I'm helpless on the ground
and I need you to set me free

{You're what keeps me happy
what keeps me alive at all
just the thought of you picks me up
when I'm about to fall}

Until that day that I can have you
I have to do my best
to keep on going through this
it is only just a test

So I stare forever forward
hoping for the day
that I can look you in the eye
to plain and simply say:

I love you my darling
with all my heart I do
and never could I ask
for anything more perfect than you

If only I could see
If only I could tell
If only I could hold
instead of whispering to myself
I love you

This is my second poem, longer than the last, but no more meaningful, they both come straight from my heart. I havne't showed my boyfriend yet, but they're all for him, and for all of you in love out there, you'll understand my pain. He really is halfway around the world, and I couldn't miss him more, to everyone else who has they're love, tell them you love them once more... -and note to reader, the parts that say { } are parts that I'm not sure are needed... plz leaeve comments, good or bad. hope you like it :)