Last

She has lost all hope
and she has lost all faith
she starts to write
a suicide note saying
\"u all said u loved me
but it never showed
u all told my other cousins
that they were good as gold
u left me out
u gave them money
and not me
u gave them the stuff i dont have
i cant take it
i just cant
u didnt even believe me
when i tryed to tell u what happend when i was ten
it was bad what he tryed to do
u didnt believe me
u only believed u
and school is a bust
i always dont fit in
and the teachers they hate me
what can i say
but i have made my choice tonight is the night
i swear
that my last breath will be
around nine
im not using a knife
i was but im not now
i just desided to take the easy way out
ill take some pills
and over dose on them
thats the cause of death for me
i dont want u to be sad
i loved u very dearly
but cant u she
im crying deep inside
im hiding from my smile
beneath these eye are tears that are being cryed
so i have chosin tonight
as my last night\"

thats all she said
she didnt finish it at all
cause that night there was a knock on the door
before nine o clock

she was the only one who heard it
the next thing she knows
small rocks were being thrown
at her window

looking out side
looking in his eyes
all he told me was goodbye

u see he never really cared
it was all one big lie
then he turn around and said
\"i guess ill never get to see u again\"
\"i cant believe it, he is smileing away
i cant believe he never cared at all
that was very mean of him\"

\"lies
all i believe are lies\"
she continues to write
in the suicide letter she will leave here to night

\"i hate life\"
as she starts to cry
asking herself why

\"im ok
ill be just fine
cause tonight
is my last night\"

she puts a cd in
and turns on a song
as she presses repeat
she thinks \"this will be my funeral song\"

this is the end its now around nine
but then she saw her mom walk by
she hide all the stuff under her bed
her mom walks away, thinking \"she is ok\"

she looked out side
and prayed that she will die
cause she said tonight was her last night

she goes in a corner
away from the door
the pills right next to her
and water to

\"tonight my pain ends
cause tonight is the night i will put an end to it
i will not go on
i will not be strong, cause tonight
this is my last song\"
she took lots of pills out
as she then closes the cap

the note next to her
along with the pills
\"tonight i will do this\"
she slowly starts to take the pills one by one
\"thats it
im over
im done\"
there were scars on her leg
and scars on her arm
from a razor blade
witch she kept hidden

she start to sway from side to side
vision is blurry
she falls to the ground
her life was just turn upside down
she closes her eyes
and trys to ignore the pain
but it wont just go away

later on she feel asleep
never to wake up
the next morning