As that day comes closer,
a happy smile turns to a frown,
depression takes over me,
laughing so hard,
turns to crying so hard,
the pain seeps threw,
my happiness,
it fills the cracks,
of my broken heart,
evil thoughts run threw my mind,
I'm gaping out,
running out of time,
i ask myself to save me,
i choose not too,
its too late now,
I'm dying,
theres nothing anyone can do,
no one cares,
i can't smile on the outside,
on the inside I'm screaming for help,
don't let anything out,
pictures of past,
just like last year,
why can't i change?
you ask whats wrong,
i say nothing,
i walk away,
whisper to myself,
everything,
you ask yourself ,
how can i help her?
you can't though,
your already doing the best thing ever,
being here by my side,
taking turns being each others shadows,
was the best thing ever,
spending time with you,
it all means a lot to me,
you being here does too,
I'm changing,
giving up,
letting go,
I'm weak,
i sit there in dance,
gap out into my world of depression,
but when i come out,
i try to go back to happiness,
it doesn't work for me anymore,
23 more days as i count down,
i look at the scars,
i start to cry,
to tell you I'm sorry,
for the days i said i was fine,
i wasn't all along,
i lied,
tears start to scar on my face,
in my heart and my cheeks,
I'm a fallen star,
how can you all even look me in the face?
devils night,
worst night never,
8:00pm was that time,
it be the same,
drawing pictures,
giving ideas,
having new marks on my body,
everyday that passes i take another step,
into my deep depression,
its time now,
for me to say my good-byes,
but I'm staying strong and trying to hold on,
not for me,
for you,
my friend
