Not understanding this

My strength is like glass
that always seem to shatter
but I won't pick up the pieces
because they don't really matter

my thoughts are so random
and not worth your attention
cause all of them are for nothing
and depressing, might I mention

my souls barley there
but its not all gone, just yet
my mind holds these memories
that I just wish I'd forget

my faith is still there
but I have no idea how
hope still exists in me
just enough, just for now

my hopes are all on you
to change the way I feel
my prayers are for that wound I have
that I know will never heal

my words are kinda worthless
they're not helping you
so your not understanding this...
not like I want you to