Sometimes

Sometimes I feel a baby in my arms
But she's gone
I caused her harm

Sometimes I hear a baby cry
But it's not her
I made her die

Sometimes I think I could have made a better choice
Was I selfish?
Was I dumb?
I was scared
I was young

Sometimes I think she'll be mine again
But she's angry
She is hurt
I was wrong
I don't deserve her

Sometimes I think I'm better off dead
But that won't help
So I push it out of my head

Sometimes I feel a baby in my arms
But it's not her
I caused her harm

Aloways I wish to change my past mistakes
But it's too late
It's too late