End

Lies
thatâ??s all I hear
Nothing but u is what I fear

Pain
regret
weakness
inside

Nothing left now
Nothing to hide

Empty place
Empty feeling
The pain is just leering

Life is hard
I try to live it
I try to keep on

It gets to be to much
I cant handle it myself
The truth is I need some one else

I need some one beside me
Just to help guide me

My problems are to much
And im tired of this life
I am sick of who I am
I just want this all to end

Its hard
I no it is
Ur talking to some one with experience

Iv cut before
Iv done self harm
Iv tried just many times
Many tries
With suicide

I understand the problems
I understand this life
But I donâ??t understand
Why I cant handle my own life

So much stress
So much pain and regret
So many things I wish I never said

Out side im happy
I smile and laugh
But inside im screaming and crying
Just trying to hold on to life

I cook I clean I have fights and ya I get mean
I have a boyfriend
And many friends
But still no ones there when I really need them

Can I stop this obsession
With suicide
Can I just please stop the problems I have
Can I just please take the easy way out

Can this be over
Can I be gone
Can this all end by my deep cut?

Can I please be alone
Cause I need
This time to myself
This time to me

I need to think over and again
About why I wish to make a finale cut

This will be the end
This is where the side walk ends
This is when I chose to take my life
This is all my choice
All of its mine

No tears shall be cried
No people shall be sad
Cause this is my choice so please just be glad

Id be happy no because I wont live
Even if it is a sin
Ill be happy the way this ends