This Bleeding Heart

A torn heart in a torn night
A torn tear on a torn face
A torn promise in a torn mind
A torn eye on a torn soul

I'm dying to love you
But problems arouse
You turn them into us
And ruin what's left

The smoking or huffing
The crying and the pain
The sniffing and the swallowing
The scream and the hatred

Tear one, I begin to swell
Smoke two, you begin to lose
Tear three, Thoughts of wonder
Smoke four, lost in nowhere

If I could explain before you do
I would let you know
A smoke for a cut
Is no even deal

A knife against my skin
For weed against your face
A bleed for my heart
For a physical unattraction

I'm losing my unfought battle
As you win your victory
I'll lay alone tonight and wonder
While you smoke and slowly die

I'll open my knife and pull slowly
I like to watch a bleed that can't stop
I love to feel the pain released
While you love to forget about..me..

Once again I show another sucky poem in my profile. I'm sorry guys but I'm just not really getting something down right lately. I'm trying but I've got my mind on my baby wanting to smoke weed, so ya, please help me on this one to construct it better. Thanks!!

Dedicated to the love of my life