Emotional

I hate love
What I thought was love wasn't
Hurts so much to see one leave then one come back
I don't know what I feel anymore
It hurts sooo much
All I ask is to be held and being told I'm beautiful
But I never get it
I get smacked in the face and stomped on
Love is a word that doesn't exist in my vocabulary
I can't believe in it
I always get hurt
My parents don't love me
One can ever love me
Only the few friends I have I guess love me
Or so they say
Control is one thing I don't have
All I seem to do anymore is mentally breakdown
Cry and cry
Going on 5 years straight
Meds seem to work for a while
Doctors and other people think I'm a phyco
What's new?
I can't take this emotional jumping anymore
I'm going to say goodbye sometime soon....