Im Out...

I want to write a poem,
About everything I feel
But I dont even understand
What is right and real.

Its hard to portray your emotion on paper
Its your feelings that you keep inside
No one truly understands anyway
Why a thousand tears at night youve cried

Not even knowing the reason,
Behind all the lonely tears
Why they stain your face so coldly
And exaggerate your fears.

My words are spoken about my thoughts
But broken down by you
You cant begin to understand
Unless youve been through it too.

Im sorry, Im not what u want me to be
But I want to be true to my own
How can I come out with my feelings?
I guess they arent meant to be shown.

If u lie to yourself enough,
The lies will eventually seem true
Im lying to my true feelings
Hiding all my secrets from you

Am I imperfect?
Are my thoughts so impure?
Is it so hard to believe these feelings
Im having arent so obscure?

Dont tell me how Im suppose to feel
I can figure it out on my own
Dont tell me Im wrong for what I want
When to you it is unknown.

If u dont like the choices Ive made
Dont tell me how wrong I am
I can love a girl if I want to,
Cause really, I dont give a damn!

I want to write a poem,
About everything I feel
But you wouldnt understand anyway
Cause to you my feelings arent real.

PLease either comment or rate my poem if u have read it... it would be much appreciated and i will do the same for you too!!