My Life

The knives struck through my heart
the blades pierce the skin and bleed
I'm lost in my own memory of the past
sitting alone without my mind with me
The moment I realized how I thought
was when i saw my fate to come
alone in the darkness of the shadows
just waiting for this hectic life to be done
I said this from the start
and no one listens to my words
no one can imagine the troubles I've had
no one can feel how much my heart hurts
these bastards that surround me
conceited, liars and scum
they're nothing but bad memories I have
and worse memories to come
I lie to my friends and love
because I don't want them to know
that I'm nothing but a broken soul
with no idea on where I should go
some people think that I'm weird
but hell if they only knew
that I don't cry because I can't
but because I'm criticized when I do.
I've been told to open my heart
and show what goes on inside
Show everything that happened before
I'm living a life of hell, and a while back I died.
Laugh at my statement if you wish
but think before you do
dead is only a cold lying body
thing is thats what I am too.