It gives me goosebumps?
it makes me depressed,
i feel like turning around,
slitting my wrists,
nice and deep,
i had my chance,
to end my life,
but i blew it,
i couldn't,
for once i felt great,
and it was on devils night,
why?
because i didn't slit?
i didn't die?
i wish i did,
seeing me all over again,
makes you cry,
are u proud?
there isn't a cut on my body from me,
i noticed from the last two years,
i hurt my love ones,
friends, family,
So here i say it,
Sorry,
i never met to hurt you,
i never thought i wouldn't have to talk to her again,
the one who told all my family my Little secret,
are u proud?
7 months we haven't spoke,
i can't even look u in the eye,
without being ready to cry,
this is who i am now,
a confused little girl,
where she doesn't know ,
were to stand,
or by who?
so i sit here and wonder,
WHY ME??
as i scream,
threw a picture it hit the ground,
i regret it,
what did i do?
why did i break this?
i can't take it,
MOM!! i need you?
Dad can u care?
just for once,
just for me?
take the black colors away,
make that deep black color of my depression,
go away,
so for once i can see the bright light,
smile,
pray i will be Kay for a little while,
be with me,
don't leave me alone,
in the dark,
or in a room with razor blades,
cut me,
cut me hard,
cut it slow,
just so i can see,
that my blood can show,
save me now,
before i lay down,
can't get up because,
I'm stuck in my own,
deep depression..
