Culpable

Sitting alone in a coffee shop
The waitress is cold but the latte's hot
Sun shines blinding through the window pane
It appears to agree the I'm to blame

Thoughts are churning within my mind
Tumbling over what I've left behind
Crawling in the gutter, I dragged us down
Till even I didn't want to be around

She could only watch me pretend to fly
While on the inside my spirit writhed
I adored her more than she will know
But I loved my demons just a little more

Killing my mind with pretentious bliss
No one wants to stay and deal with this
I try to escape by staying straight
But my friends know the score and lay in wait

Drifting back to coffee slowly poured
By a pair of blue eyes I can't ignore
She sees an unkempt man with no class
She turns away and gets out fast

Crashing down again, not giving a *u*k
Staring down the Devil in a ceramic cup
Trying to figure out just how I feel
I keep losing track of what is real

With no more time left to kill
I float outside, forgetting the bill
Ignoring the sun's accusing glare
I face the day without a life; without a care