Voice, Guide Me

I need a voice to guide me,
to tell me what to do.
I can't listen to my heart anymore,
for i'm truly confused and it's all jumbled up.
I've landed myself in the sticky mud which i've never been in before,
and i don't know how to get myself out of this mess.

Tell me,
what should i do with a broken and painful friendship of mine?

I'm always reminded of it,
when i go to a place that i've gone with them before.
Reminded of it,
when i saw the game we always played.
I feel so confused,
what should i do?
Even if i ask them for a patching up,
even if we became friends again,
things will never be the same again.
The pain i've felt,
the scar they left behind,
will always be there for the rest of my life.
Even if we became good friends again,
i will always have an empty feeling inside me.
I'm scared,
that i would be scarred again.
I can't take it anymore,
not again.
I feel so confused,
i want to be friends with you again,
but i'm scared of going through it again.
I really can't afford going through it again,
really can't.

Please tell me,
what should i do..?
Can someone tell me the answer to my prayer?