I Just Can't Bare Living Another Day

I told myself I wouldn't do it,
I thought that I was above all of this stuff,
I knew all of my friends would have a fit,
but living my life is just too tough.

I sat in my room,
I found something sharp,
I thought about all of the gloom,
Everything that was tearing me apart.

I looked at my arm,
I wasn't quite sure,
but I stuck to it and began to self harm,
I just couldn't bare the pain of living anymore.

I felt good for a while,
but then it struck me, what had I done?
I watched the blood drip onto the tiles,
I thought it would just be a bit of fun.

The blood wont stop coming,
I'm losing feeling in my hand,
My fingers are numbing,
I find the strength in my legs and I stand.

Looking at myself and I feel so dumb,
I let everything get to me,
Now all the others have won.

Never again I tell myself,
I put the blade away,
I know it will happen again, I need help,
I just can't bare living another day.

I'm not okay,
I'm not just fine,
If you payed more attention you'd see I'm close to crossing the line.