For tonight

It won’t always be this way
Everyone holds the possibility
Everyone has a chance

No one will be alone forever

But for tonight I am lone
For tonight I shall burn
For tonight I shall cry

But I can’t forget you yet
I won’t forget you
Don’t ask me to
I told you the truth
I said I love you
You aren’t worth it to yourself
But in my mind, in my heart, you are.

But I don’t want to bother
I don’t want to scare
Don’t let me hurt you
I won’t ever try
I would never want to
You don’t deserve it
But you still think you do

So I am nothing now
Nothing to you I am
All because you are nothing to yourself
I know life is not fair, but why make it worse?
Why must you question my every move?
Why am I becoming nothing to you?
Correct me if I am wrong
But it seems I have managed to make you care less
How on earth could I make you care less than you did?
How is this happening? Where did I go wrong here?

Dear God, stop the pain
Take away the burning, the ache
Take away the tear ducts from my eyes
So never again shall I cry
He would tell me he’s not worth my tears
As he told me I won’t be on the ground for his sake
Not worth it. Not worth it. Not worth it. Not worth it.
No matter how many times he repeats those words.
I shan’t ever believe them.

You told me when we had first met
That suicide, you were over that
Why the morbid thoughts?

Please don’t hurt me –
Don’t push me away
Don’t doubt everything I say.
Don’t hate me.
Don’t leave.
Please don’t hurt me.

My throat aches for you
My heart cries out for you
My lip quivers for you
Not worth it?
Too late.