Faith

I sit at the top of a steep towering cliff,
as i contemplate on life itself,
looking down at the beauty of the peacefull ocean.
up above,the sky is filled with an explosion of colours,
as the sun prepares to set on the earth,
and leave it in complete darkness,
just like my heart.

feeling unwanted,i want to jump off and end things
but i wonder,will it really end
or will it continue in the afterlife?

i feel sad,lonely,hurt and helpless
as i reflect on my life.
what is my purpose for being here?
and why am i alive?
why was i created and what is my destiny?
the fierce waves crashes into the cliff
and darkness slowly creeps up.

i feel worthless and unloved
even though i know i'm treasured.
but this feeling is so overcoming that i am helpless against it.

why am i so sad when i know i should be happy?
inside,my heart is crying yet my eyes are free of tears.
i wanna run away from everything and be alone.

it is completely dark now
except for the guiding moonlight.
i lie at the top of the cliff,
and,listening to the soothing ocean,smelling the crisp air,
i look at the brightest star in the sky,
and i wonder,are you looking at it too?

shining it's way through the darkness,
that little star,being millions of miles away,
brings a spec of hope,compassion,love and faith back into my life
along with a little happiness.