Secrets of an eternal hell

Nails driving into my head, the pressures just to much,
Voices shouting yelling, its like an adrenaline rush.
I am pushed and shoved in each direction,
Looking for an answer in this complication.
The spark of life will soon fade away.
No one will notice as my limp body lay.
Can anyone see the pain that I suffer?
For me, life couldn not get any tougher.
I wish I could just keep everything tucked inside,
It would be my own inner suicide.
The razor jolts deeply into my arm,
It brings a health hazard yet I feel no harm.
The cruelty of the world I cannot handle,
The life of me is like a candle,
Slowly fading away waiting to burn out,
I wish there was an easier route.
Even though I am living in an eternal hell
These secrets I shall never tell.