Dot after dot

Dot after dot fill my mind
press on my eyelid
when i feel ready to cry
sharp intakes of breath
leave you wanting no more
you wanna lose this battle
you wanna fall to deaths door...
crying so loudly
you're surprised u havent woken your family
your bloods streaming continuously
like the tears down your cheeks
the salt mingles with the skin
it mingles with What u hate
What u pick at till your bleeding...
you sit in the shower and scrub at your skin...
you scrub till its red raw
you scrub away every handprint he left
the red liquid surrounds you
n u look at What you've done
with disgusted fascination...
stinging..burning.
you let the water wash it away
twisting turning
ongoing festering
eyes so dead...
cry, cry...
the tears go un noticed by the water...
die die darling...
you will soon