Looking Back

Looking back at the memories we had,
I realize that you never knew me.
Echos of our laughter lost in the wind.

Never was I able to open up to you.
Left in the dark, my secrets untold.
Our smile captured on film, framed.

It's only now that I realize
What a shallow friendship we had.
Laughter and smiles covered
The secrets we kept to ourselves.

After so many years, I began
To hate your flaws more than I liked
The qualities that you posessed.

You were always too loud.
You were always pushing people around.
You were always trying so hard.

When I was with you,
I was never able to be myself.
I always had to hide who I was,
Because I knew that you would play
On the weaknesses I kept within.

I know we tried to mend the friendship.
Yet, failed for I was stronger.
I know how to defend myself now.
My confidence has risen again.

The night our screams echoed
In the locker room, I was freed.
The insults launched at each other
Made me realize that I don't need you.
I have friends who are there for me.

Although they don't know about my past,
They know so much more than you ever did.

That night, I saw who you really were.
I turned my back to you one final time,
For I finally realized what you did to me.
I finally realized that I never needed you.

The insults launched at each other echo in my ear.
I don't regret any of it.
Because, after so many years, I'm finally letting you go.
I wish I were sorry... but I'm not.