Always and never

Always thought you would be there,
always thought you would care
always dreamed of you at night
always told i wasn\'t right
always crying with the rain
always hiding all my pain
always wishing to belong
always missing whats always gone

never wanting to be lost
never wishing to pay the cost
never thinking you would lie
never knowing i would die
never hoping for this feeling
never getting something healing
never knowing how it would feel
never knowing my death was real