Untied knots

In the dark things seem far less problematic
Your complexity invisible for me to see
But all of these troubles just wont be forgotten
Its created everything i\'ll ever be

This is the pain i\'ll live with
For which there is no anesthetic
But you are the flower, i watched in bloom
Yes you were the flower i picked

I suffer from unmentionable remorse,
Now i spend my time on my own
Rgretful i never held you close,
Now adapting to life alone

I could have been the one to save you
To swalllow all your pain
Ive personalised everything of yours
But loneliness still feels the same

So now i watch from the outskirts
As you bloom for others too
Your complexity out for me to see
As my new life starts,without you