Lonely Soul

Started at 8:35 pm

November 25, 2005

While your smiling and crying.
I'm laughing and frowning.
No can see it though.
It's all in our * heads right?
Just because I'm different.
Means nothing to you.
I'm not your friend.
So why do you * care?
You hate me remember.
So step away from my friend.
Put the gun down.
Leave this place now.
Just let me take over.
I'll make it all beter.
Just give me the * gun.
And it will all be over...
Now here i am.
In the center of the room.
With a gun to my head.
Tears streaming down my face.
A smile on my lips.
I see my best friend.
Frowning and laughing.
She's having a good old time.
I know the truth.
You know how I * know?
That girl is ME.
No one gives a crap*.
I'm just another lonely soul.
Floating around and getting ignored.
Being used and abused.
No one cares I am so close to suicide.
But I hold on and I still am.
I put the gun down.
I walk slowly away.
I turn to the door and leave.
I wake up from this dream.
And go to reality.
My best friend is in tears.
My mom is dieing.
My dad is in jail.
So here I am in all this crap*.
Laughing..

Ended at 8:55 pm

Sorry so.. weird and messed* up. I had so many emotions coming out at once last night. Tell me what you think of it please.

*=f word.
if its after a word it means i had the other word and not the fill in i have up top. just so you know