Waking up

I woke up...today...thinking things were going to be ok... but is wasn't...
him and me... things didn't turn out like they were supposed to be...
i sit here thinking of him..
wondering what did i do?..
for him to do such a thing.. for someone i thought i knew...
deep inside my heart says it is ok... but on the outside i am saying....why did things have to be this way...
i know you will be there...when i am cold...
in the darkness...i need someone to hold...
for someone to hurt me once again..
is killing me and him...
he doesn't understand how i feel...
what is love? is that the deal?