Wishing you away

I close my eyes
Trying not to see
Trying not to remember
What you have done to me

Just wanting to forget
Pretend you don't exist
Disregard all that I've lost
All the things that I have missed

Its not just belongings
But trust is lost too
I thought I knew you well
I thought you knew me too

I gave you a part of me
That I rarely give away
I let down my guard
A more and more every day

What I thought was a friendship
Meant nothing to you
Even a piece of my heart
And you threw that way too

I guess this is what I must endure
I had to get you out of my life
While I tried to stay alive
You stabbed me with your knife

And now you are gone.
As is a part of my heart
and my ability to trust
has been torn all apart

But I'll make it somehow
I'll get back up again
I'll crawl out of this hole
That I've been living in

And all the tears I've cried
And all that I've been through
Will once be in the past
Buried with memories of you

I have to believe
That someday I will find
someone who'll truly love me
For the rest of time.