I wish i could tell you

It\'s gotten to the point that i feel worthless around you
horrible
but then again,
I\'m used to feeling like that...
i feel like i completely destroyed your life
& perhaps i did,
but if i did
i want you to know,
i never meant it
i never meant to
while i don\'t show it much anymore
you meant the world to me
everything
i knew i could trust you with anything
& i still feel like i could
i wish i had never done some of the things i did
& I\'m sad that I\'ve become \"her\" in your poems
i wish i could sit you down & talk about him
god i wish i could tell you about him
cause if it weren\'t for you
i wouldn\'t have known him...
i wish i could tell you how much i miss you
& your randomness
& i wish i could tell you
how sorry i am....