Do i really want this?

What did i do?
What did I say?
To make us end up with,
Tear filled faces every day

Do I deserve this hurt
this stream of pain
What do you earn?
What do you gain?

It hurts too much now
I want to give way
I dont know if I've ever seen
a darker summers day

As I watch the blade
Pierce through my light skin
I can feel the intense pain
Its too much I give in

As I stare at my work
That I started with a grin
The job is now done
I've committed a mighty sin

It makes me sick
To think of it again
But when I get down
Out with the knife, on with the pain

Its shameful I know
But what can I do
It doesn't even help saying
I LOVE YOU!