Mum

I have a picture carved in me,
I kiss it everyday
Your eyes like swords they pierce my soul
The guilt I'll never say

I wrote a letter in my head
Full of love I never told
God, I need you by my side
I need your hand to hold

I blank you out from time to time,
Oh Lord I need you so
It hurts to know your far away
Somewhere that I can't follow

Where you walk, I cannot run
It kills me without you
I would never touch the grass so soft
Had you not pulled me through

So many thankyou's and sorries I cried
For I fear you'll never find
The road between us now so long
Now only memories left behind

For every day that passes
You are all I ever see
I think of you with every step I take
A knife is turned so slowly

So hard sometimes to rise each day
Knowing that your not there
I wait for your return in shame
This sorrow so hard to bear

I'm so afraid I'll forget your voice
Afraid you won't come home
Afraid to look in the mirror and find
That my heart has turned to stone

No matter the miles between us
I will keep my promise true
Should you fall to Gods' sweet tender
Know that I will follow you

Never will you hear me say
That poisonous word goodbye
For if you leave me once again
Know that I will surely die

The sun no longer shines on me
The grass no longer soft
I miss the way we were as one
A mothers love I miss so much

I love you mum, I always will
You are the true Queen of my heart
Golden Angel, please come home
For each day tears me apart