Breathless

Lying here breathless
Senseless and mourning
But whats there to mourn
The lose of you or myself
As this feeling overtakes my mind
I become emotionless
It starts to sink in that everything that once was
Will never be again
Cold and bitter I turn my back on everyone
Feelings of loneliness takes over my body and soul
I learn to continue on with no one but me
Opening my heart to no one
Loving no one
Is it fear that has stitched the seal on my heart ?
Or anger?
Confusing but this is how it has to be
for protection
For I have been unloved and unable for to long
Knocked down and unable to get up
Dependence lies within me
and only me