My Depression, My Obsession

Every day is fake
Smiles laughter and happiness
Hides all the secrets that haunt me
Getting people to believe that Im ok

Scarred wrists hidden by long sleeves
My whole body is in disguise
Hidden away from the real world
Scared that they'll taunt me even more

With people around me
A plastic smile
Every night, loneliness
That haunts me yet again

These feelings I cant fight
The blade I crave
The blood I see pour down
All over my body

Does tomorrow have to come?
Can tonight be the night?
It all ends
The pain, torture and agony

All this is the only thing I can feel
Everything else is numb
The memories make me feel like this
The only thing that keeps me sane

The blade which is hidden
From the world out there
So they cant know what's going on
They can't see how much pain I'm really in

One slice at a time
Trying to get away from the torture
More blood is left seeping
My eyes are left crying

Drowning in every drop
Tears and blood
Are all I see
This is what I feel

Leave me to do this
I have to end it
As no one can help me
It ends here, right now!