Letter To Mom

Dear Mom:

No Matter what happens,
I'm always to blame.
Instead of bringing you happiness,
My name brings you shame.

Nothings ever good enough,
Nothing I do or say.
So I hide in the Corner,
With hopes that you will love me some day.

Is my life nothing to you?
Would you rather me die?
And another tear,
Slowly drops from my lonely eyes.

I'm not worthy of your love
So I'll leave, walk out the door.
I tried to be your perfect angel,
But you only expected more.

I don't know what to do,
And my words are not coming out.
I move my mouth
As I desperately try to shout.

I'm sorry that I hurt you,
And that I lied.
But shouldn't you be too?
For all the times you left me here to cry?

The pain was all bottled up,
It only knew how to hide.
My whole body hurt,
Starting with the inside.

I have done everything,
Everything imaginable.
Even some things,
I thought were impossible.

I want to be a family again,
And not feel so alone.
I want to be more,
Then an emotionless pile of bones.

What more do you want?
What more can I do?
Please tell me,
That you love me too.
3/15/05
12/26/05